Greetings faithful readers! I want you to know how much I appreciate all of your comments and prayers: I feel you interceding each time I post something on here!
I come before you today with a joyful, yet heavy, heart. I find myself in a situation where I can safely say God is teaching me to be more like His Son through a painful and scary situation.
Sparing intimate details, I can share with you a little bit of what is happening in the hope that it encourages someone somewhere.
A very dear friend of mine shared with me a few months ago that he had feelings for me and wanted to see if a relationship could work between us. Because I had also had feelings for him, I was joyous about hearing this news and excited to enter into the stages of a dating relationship with him. Over the past month or so we have gone out on dates, chatted more, and shared parts of our lives, being sure to move very slowly. I feel that he, as a godly man, has done a great job of leading in this, and I felt that our progress was naturally moving along. Of course through all of it, I knew we were both seeking the Lord and asking for His will. That’s one thing I absolutely LOVE about this man: I can 100% trust his relationship with our Heavenly father. I have no doubt in my mind that any move he makes, he first seeks God’s approval. That is a comfort and security that drew me to him even as his friend.
This week has been a bit trying. Let me just say that after all of our progress, my dear friend has felt the need to pause and seek God before determining if he is truly called to move forward with this relationship. I am obviously choosing my words carefully here out of respect for him. Also, it’s our business what’s going on! Again, my whole point in sharing is to edify the body and encourage others who might be now or in the future experiencing something like this.
So, as he seeks God on his own, I find that I must draw even closer to my Father as I “wait” to hear if my expectations of this relationship with be fulfilled or undone. And the funny thing in all of this is that I have a peace that I didn’t know possible. When my friend told me of his need to take time, I thought I was hearing horrible news. But after laying on my face with God, I see now that this is not horrible news at all!
For in this all, I find Psalm 62 to be of the greatest encouragement! Especially verse 5, which says in the KJV:
“My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.”
So in truth, my dear friends, I am not (and have not) ever been waiting on answer from man! I am 100% waiting on GOD to come through. And therefore, in being reminded that I am waiting on the Master and Creator of the Universe, who promised prosperity and good, I can take comfort in the fact that even if the earthly answer that comes back from my friend isn’t the one I currently want to hear, GOD’s plan for my life is far greater than my expectations can even imagine right now.
So, I wait on GOD ALONE who is the author and creator of my fate. And no matter how much I love my brother in Christ, I love Christ more. I love God’s plan more than mine. And when the two match up, when my desire is the same as His: WATCH OUT! LORD, I can’t wait to see that!
Oh, on second thought…I CAN!