How do you handle messages from God? What if it’s something you don’t want to hear (as it so often is)? For me, these recent messages have been uplifting, and also heartbreaking. God has used several people to confirm everything He has whispered to me in my silence. These confirmations have spoken to the very core of my being, and I don’t think I can go back to being the same after hearing them.
For starters, I’ve been actively working on being able to listen to my spirit and not my flesh when it comes to every aspect of my life. My trainer is constantly telling me that I have to push past the physical and tap into my mind to push further and reach my goals. This needs to be applied to my spiritual walk with God as well. In my attempt to stay in tune with my Creator, I’ve learned so much about how I personally operate in situations. Sparing details about my personal revelation, one key sentence that sticks out to me is this: “Look for the one that speaks to your spirit.” This is so interesting to me, as it’s so easy for us (me) to focus on what speaks to my flesh (what feels good) when God truly wants me to only accept what speaks to my spirit.
In addition, I was told tonight that it wasn’t my personal season for something that I have been patiently waiting for. This was so tough to hear, but I know it to be so true. See, a prophet can only confirm what God has already revealed to you, so this woman in my Isaiah class confirmed something in my spirit. I do, indeed, have to wait longer for the blessing I thought was so very close. I don’t know how much longer, but when you want something, any amount of waiting is annoying, right? However, the uplifting aspect of what was revealed to me is that this woman confirmed that God has this blessing for me (which is so very exciting) and plans to give it to me in a different season. I want to focus on how this eliminates the stress of wondering IF I could or would actually receive what I was praying and believing God for. Now that I know I will get it eventually, I think I need to spend more time in the present preparing myself for this special blessing.
My heart is heavy, but my mind feels so free this evening as I type this message. I trust God, and am learning to trust Him more every day. I don’t doubt that He has GREAT plans for my life. I don’t doubt that God loves me. I don’t doubt my ability to make it through this season. I don’t doubt and I won’t doubt, the One who made me and called me His.