I arrived home tonight to find that my cell phone didn’t make the journey with me. I left my phone on campus. What’s funny is that while I was packing my bags into my car, I was thinking that I should grab my phone as that is what I usually do. I decided that I wouldn’t so this, as the drive home is short and I wanted to reflect upon the teachings of my enlightened professor.
….or was it?
I didn’t instantly freak out when I got home. Instead, I got angry and told God that I refused to believe that this was happening. I wasn’t upset with God; I was upset with the situation. I told My Creator that I wouldn’t accept the fact that this phone was being taken away from me. I have had so many (what I thought was important) things stolen from me in the past year, I didn’t want to believe that this, too, was gone.
In logging onto my computer, I found an email from my frantic mother who received a phone call from the person who (THANK GOD) found my phone. She was shaken by the call, but I was joyous of the fact that someone, indeed, had found that which was briefly lost. Before reading this email I told God, “I know you have and WILL restore that which has been taken from me.” I know my phone wasn’t stolen, but it was lost. And the point here is that I didn’t pray, ” God, PLEASE bring my phone back,” or “Lord, can you make this go away?” Instead, I told God, “I trust You; I know You will come through on Your Word; I believe in You in all circumstances.”
Though the phone still isn’t in my hand, and that feeling is weird, I am comforted by something else in this situation. I instantly wanted to get on facebook and twitter and see if I could get the “world” to help me find my phone. I thought, maybe I could just get on quickly and use it to help me, even though I am still fasting from both media outlets. I had to check myself and these thoughts. I was actually going to tell My Provider that I didn’t think the provisions offered by God were enough. In breaking my fast I would have said to the Lord, “You can’t sustain me; I need that cell phone more than I need You.” This isn’t a sentence I want My Source to ever hear coming from my lips.
In addition, I feel as though God has something major to say to me. In this moment, I can’t use facebook, or twitter, and I don’t have a cellphone to distract me. I genuinely have known God to put me (and others) in this uncomfortable situations when the Author of Life wants to speak and breathe Divine Truth. I am ready to hear whatever God has to say, but please, if you’re reading this, pray for me. Who knows if this message will be one I enjoy. All I know is that He wants me to listen….the Words that follow can’t be predicted by me.
Okay Lord, I am listening.